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Telling people how I got to know Michael is the most puzzling thing ever !
I was very young when I fist "heard" about him, I used to watch earth song on TV that time and other music videos as Scream ... One day, I saw We are the world for the 1st time, I really loved the song, then I begged my father to buy the K7 for me, so we went in town then finally bought it but i didn't pay attention to Michael, I definitely could recognize him but I wasn't a fan that time. Michael seemed so weird to me, and to be honest, I've never been interseted in his music (besides what the songs I knew) or personality, I believed the crap that was written on tabloids and what was told on TV, just like the way my parents did. I didn't even know why he went on court, and I was wondering what was wrong. When he died, I was enough old to make a diffenrece between lies and truth, I was devasted even before knowing him, I didn't know why I was crying all the time after his passing. So I decided to learn the truth about him by myself, none was gonna tell me what to do or what to believe. And I must confess that I regretted everything I did by judging him, I felt so guilty after all, I realized how stupid I was ! I used to cry ALL THE TIME ! It was very very tough for me and epecially when you're alone cause nobody actually understunds you and all your friends just don't care ! Since June, I've learnt so much from Michael, from his music, from his facts, I just wanna thank him for teaching me, that's the least I could do ! Sometimes, I feel kinda sad cause I've missed everything ! I try to not show them my love for MJ, cause they would think I'm crazy or something like that, and even by hiding it, they got to know what I feel towards him, especially when you start acting like him and tell them about chaging the world and making it a better place, since the time, I'm the weirdo in my family, anyway ...
Now, Michal is MY LIFE ! I'm thinking about him every single second my life, when I wake up, the 1st thing in my mind is Michael, even before questionning where I am or whatever, and believe me or not, I love Michael as much as I love my own parents (I don't if he'd believe if I told him that) ! That's an amazing feeling ! It's hard to handle the guilt, so I'm doing my best to forgive myself, I hope Michael will forgive me one day !
I forgot to say about 2 songs that I heard before his death in the radio which are "blame it on the boogie" and "for all time" ! I loved it but I didn't know the name of both of the songs ! I wish I took this opportunity to discover the artist at least !
Please don't hate for that !
Edited by MJSunshine, 20 August 2010 - 04:39 AM.