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[Peaceful.Miss.Zineb]

Hi everybody,
I'm new here, I just signed in the forum, I begin to enjoy discovering it

[Avril MJ]

Hi Peaceful.Miss.Zineb!

[MJSunshine]

Hi Peaceful.Miss.Zineb,

welcome to the site, I'm glad you enjoy it.  
What an interesting user name. What meaning does it have?
You are very young, so as always I'm curious to know what made you a fan and when you became interested in MJ?

[Peaceful.Miss.Zineb]

Are you asking me about "Zineb" right ? Or the full username ?

[Peaceful.Miss.Zineb]

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Telling people how I got to know Michael is the most puzzling thing ever !
I was very young when I fist "heard" about him, I used to watch earth song on TV that time and other music videos as Scream ... One day, I saw We are the world for the 1st time, I really loved the song, then I begged my father to buy the K7 for me, so we went in town then finally bought it  but i didn't pay attention to Michael, I definitely could recognize him but I wasn't a fan that time. Michael seemed so weird to me, and to be honest, I've never been interseted in his music (besides what the songs I knew) or personality, I believed the crap that was written on tabloids and what was told on TV, just like the way my parents did. I didn't even know why he went on court, and I was wondering what was wrong. When he died, I was enough old to make a diffenrece between lies and truth, I was devasted even before knowing him, I didn't know why I was crying all the time after his passing.  So I decided to learn the truth about him by myself, none was gonna tell me what to do or what to believe. And I must confess that I regretted everything I did by judging him, I felt so guilty after all, I realized how stupid I was ! I used to cry ALL THE TIME ! It was very very tough for me and epecially when you're alone cause nobody actually understunds you and all your friends just don't care ! Since June, I've learnt so much from Michael, from his music, from his facts, I just wanna thank him for teaching me, that's the least I could do ! Sometimes, I feel kinda sad cause I've missed everything ! I try to not show them my love for MJ, cause they would think I'm crazy or something like that, and even by hiding it, they got to know what I feel towards him, especially when you start acting like him and tell them about chaging the world and making it a better place, since the time, I'm the weirdo in my family, anyway ...
Now, Michal is MY LIFE ! I'm thinking about him every single second my life, when I wake up, the 1st thing in my mind is Michael, even before questionning where I am or whatever, and believe me or not, I love Michael as much as I love my own parents (I don't if he'd believe if I told him that) ! That's an amazing feeling ! It's hard to handle the guilt, so I'm doing my best to forgive myself, I hope Michael will forgive me one day !

I forgot to say about 2 songs that I heard before his death in the radio which are "blame it on the boogie" and "for all time" ! I loved it but I didn't know the name of both of the songs ! I wish I took this opportunity to discover the artist at least !

Please don't hate for that !

Edited by MJSunshine, 20 August 2010 - 04:39 AM.

[MJSunshine]

Yes, I was mainly referring to Zineb - what does that mean?

Thank you for sharing your story, we had few other members here who became a fan after Michael has passed and who were brave enough to ignore the lies people around them were telling about Michael for years and discover his real heart and soul. So why should we hate you for that?   It's great, it's Michael's legacy to teach people how to change the world. And he would be very happy when I could read your story. Don't let other people get you down and keep the faith in Michael and his way of living. Here you find so many people who just feel the same way like you

[Peaceful.Miss.Zineb]

Thanks for the support !
People use to make fun of me, I don't pay attention to it, I try to stay strong even though it hurts sometimes.
Zineb is an arabic name, it's a tree with fragrant flowers that grows in the desert . Haven't you heard about this name before ?

[shimmerysocks]

Thanks for telling your story. I'm happy that you just decided not to listen to what everyone else said and stand up for Mikey. He would've loved it.

[Peaceful.Miss.Zineb]

Thanks @shimmerysocks !
That's sweet, I feel stronger

[MJSunshine]

Peaceful.Miss.Zineb, on 20 August 2010 - 02:55 PM, said:

Thanks for the support !
People use to make fun of me, I don't pay attention to it, I try to stay strong even though it hurts sometimes.
Zineb is an arabic name, it's a tree with fragrant flowers that grows in the desert . Haven't you heard about this name before ?

No, I didn't, but thanks for telling me

[Peaceful.Miss.Zineb]

MJSunshine, on 21 August 2010 - 07:20 AM, said:

No, I didn't, but thanks for telling me

You're welcome